Updated: Jan 13
"Miracles start to happen when you give as much energy to your dreams as you do to your fears…"
~ (Richard Wilkins)
I love this quote, and it is so on point for me right now… this present moment in my life!
I was 19 when I first designed my dream boutique. At that time in my life, it was a college assignment, and I went pretty "pie in the sky" with it…why not? How would it ever really happen? In fact, that was one of the instructor's comments on it when she graded it. Basically, she thought it was a beautiful idea but realistically unattainable.
Over the years through whatever I have been doing… all the versions of me as a creator of things, teacher, lover of learning, artist… one of the constants was that I carried an "envy" in my heart for the people putting themselves "out there" selling their art, and their ideas.
Anytime I would discover and walk into a store with an artsy vibe, selling all sorts of eclectic treasures, I would hear a little voice say, "you should do this…you could do this".
When we moved to the Nanton area, I walked into a store and thought, "this should be my space,"…but it was already someone else's space. (Phew... safe for now.)
Soooo many things always seemed to be in the way though, money, time, place, happenings in my life, a solid teaching career, but really, they all boiled down to only one huge thing… fear.
What if I fail? What if what I am trying to create is misunderstood… not good… what if I go broke… what if…?
I have always truly been someone who usually walks towards my fears, but this dream/fear just had what seemed like so many valid and "realistic" excuses supporting the reasons not to pursue it.
In the brilliant book 'The War of Art,' Steven Pressfield writes, "We don't tell ourselves, "I'm never going to write my symphony." Instead, we say, "I am going to write my symphony; I'm just going to start tomorrow."
It's cliché, but we all know tomorrow never shows up.
Back to the present moment…
Such a landslide of amazing…
Things were just seeming to fall into place…
My dream store/space in Nanton came up for sale, and I had the beautiful offer of some financial assistance from my Mom.
I looked at the space on a Monday and had the keys by Thursday.
Everything I have "hoarded" over the years, doors from old houses, trunks, mannequins…all sorts of things seem like they were waiting to be put into this space…into this dream.
Primal Soul Inc... a mind, body, and soul boutique.
I am wading in a sea of fears and what-ifs, but I am doing it. The fear of not doing it and the regret of that became bigger and louder than the other concerns holding me back. This is truly a time of "taking on more than I can chew" and chewing it!
Primal Soul is such a living entity to me, ideas, courses, creations, physical space for yoga, reiki, and art. As well as plenty of eclectic treasures. Weaving through it all a deep-seated desire to make people feel "good". Like they have been gently hugged and know they matter.
A living, breathing creation that whether it is within the physical space and finding or doing something that gives you a moment of joy, or in the virtual space and tapping into a practice that helps you be more "you"… it makes my heart sing and I want that for you too.
"The ability to own and create something that is truly your vision, and to use that to improve the quality of life of those around you."
- Danielle Laporte